It's been a while since I've been able to think about writing a blog post. Here we are. Life has been so busy, but I'm so close to finishing the first draft of my novel. For now I'm sticking with the title Hanging by a Moment. That could change.
Last week I was able to write a lot, mostly because I felt crummy every day. Between my health and trying to live in the mindset of a person run out of their own country, I was very hopeless. One night in particular, that's exactly what I was feeling. No hope. This is rare for me and I knew I couldn't camp out there.
In bed that evening my husband and I read about the death of Jesus and the complete darkness that came over the land. That must have been how the disciples, and all the followers of Jesus, were feeling as they watched Him die. There was no hope. It was the blackest hour in the history of humanity. While my life really is cush, and I have so much to be grateful for, I had been thinking for days about the state of our world and how it's hard to even know how to help people. The world is a desperate and hopeless place for so many.
As I read about Jesus's death, I knew what was coming. Just after the darkest hour in history, when Jesus's followers thought all. was. lost. God was about to do something amazing. The brightest, most important thing in human history was taking place. Jesus's death was reuniting all of us with the Creator. Though he was dying, Jesus would be resurrected in three days.
My attitude before and after reading this passage of Scripture was as different as night and day. Things are bleak with my health, and especially in this world. But God has an amazing, bright plan bigger than all of us that we can't even fathom yet. One day, we will. I believe nothing is impossible with God.
Does that mean God will do just what we think is best, or what we think we want? No. Name a good parent who would give in to every request of their child. Parents know better. God knows better. Hope and life will be restored. Your darkest hours will be followed by your brightest.
Bear in mind, our timing is not God's timing. But, Jesus wins. So when you finally get to read through the harsh realities I bring to my novel, don't forget there is hope. If you're out there living at the mercy of a foreign government know you're in my thoughts and prayers every day and that there is hope.